Tomorrow is my last day in my house
Tomorrow is my very last day and night in my house. I work tomorrow, I have a lunch Thai date with Sophie, then I'm cooking J and I our last supper in my house. We're going to use the jaccuzi for the last time. I'm going to give him the last red chair special in the house. We're going to celebrate new beginnings with a few drinks, and hopefully I can convince him to play guitar for me. <3
My father used to own this little toy safe, I was always fascinated by it. When I was a teenager I finally managed to convince him to let me have it. While packing I found the toy safe and here's what was precious to me at the time:
A tiny little card that my college roomates Guylaine and Mylene gave to me when I was heartbroken.
No wonder he's sad.. his right leg is missing!
Buttons
9th grade student ID
The words to a favourite childhood cartoon. I didn't write this.
A list of everything I'll need for a mid-winter camping trip in the woods. Yep, a cute boy was involved. Cute boy wrote this list.
Fake teeth.
Sick
It's 11:30pm. I should be in bed, I have a long day ahead of me at work tomorrow. But tonight has a good chance of beeing a repeat from last night: try to sleep on my back, kind of fall asleep until a cup of snot just comes out of my nose. I didn't sleep at all. I had to call in sick and missed a conference I was to attend today. Sucks! I just HAD a cold at Christmas, how is this even possible? Am I so run down that my immune system is weak? I bought new pyjamas, I bought candles and I'm actually burning them... can't I just relax by doing relaxing things such as lighting candles?
2 Weeks
In two weeks, at this time, I’ll be all moved into my one bedroom apartment. HOLY SHIT. People have asked me if I’m packing, I tell them that no, since I’m only bringing the essential, I can’t pack the essential now because I’ll need it before I move. But tonight I’m looking around me… prints on the wall, African masks and souvenirs, big giant wooden salad tossing bowl I most likely won’t use until I move, cheese cutting plate, champagne flutes, electric fondue set, flower vases…. *panic* I need to start packing. I need to start taking all the old newspapers at work to pack breakables.
I bought a new couch and love seat this week! Well technically J did. Because I so desperately needed a new couch, and because our backs were screaming, and because buying a new couch and having it delivered up the four flights of stairs to my apartment, and because I couldn’t really afford it right now, and because my credit isn’t the best, and because he’s got a heart of gold, and most of all because of an awesome boxing week sale, we got this couch and love seat:
We used the store's 2 year no interest payment plan. The monthly payments are super cheap and I'm definitely not taking 2 years to pay off this furniture, but I figured this is a good way to buy a couch and love seat for me right now, until I'm back on my feet. 2 years. We're calling them my promise couches.
What I looked forward to in 2011!
[This is for archiving purposes, looking forward to an awesome 2012!]
January 6 - Start of Weight Loss Challenge at work!
January 26 - My dad's birthday
March 27 - Nelly concert!
May 12 - Spring Chorale Concert
June 4 - Brother & Step nephew's birthday
June 10 - Organizing a geocaching event for work!
June 20-23 - Work trip for Halifax but I can see Erin!
June 28 - Our 8th wedding anniversary <3
June 29 - Wedding Anniversary Camping trip to Fundy!
July 1 - Canada Day Fireworks at the Riverfront Park
July 12 - One year anniversary in my position at work!
July 14 - Metallica in Halifax!
July 16 - Metallica in Quebec City!
July 18 - Amherst Independant Music Festival
July 20 - Running Room's 20 minute challenge
July 30 - U2 with Steph and Erin!
August 12 - An Acoustic Sin!
August 13 - Turning 32!
August 20 - Heather's Wedding, Erin is my date!
September 10-11 - Trial by Jury chorale performances
September 14 - Pearl Jam in Ottawa!!
December 2 - Chorale Hosted Singalong in the Blue Cross Atrium
December 6 - Trip to St. John's, NL
December 11 - Chorale Christmas Concert!
December 25 - Christmas!
December 26 - Shades of Sorrow live in Amherst!
December 31 - New Years Eve
2012 Goals!
You know what’s funny? I haven’t really tried to lose weight in 2011. With a miscarriage, a separation, rounds of job cuts at work, trying hard to lose weight was just not on my radar. That’s probably the first time since I was about 7 years old that I can say that I haven’t spent the year trying to lose weight, and I’m not exaggerating. By the time I was 9 years old everyone was exasperated with me and I was brought to a dietician. Honestly, I think that 2011 was the first year that I didn’t worry so much about weight loss, and you know what? I stayed about the same weight, which is still 75lbs lower than my highest weight. Huh.
I’m ready though. I’m ready to take charge of my health. You know one good thing I did for my health in 2011? I quit smoking. I think it’s for good this time. I feel that with continued support I can do it. 2012 is going to be a big year for me, in a good way I hope! I’m moving in less than three weeks! Eeek!
Here are my goals for 2012:
- Lose weight (1st mini goal = 25lbs)
- Workout 3 times a week
- Read more than I did in 2011, which won’t be hard!
- Get my finances and taxes straightened out/separated
- Stop feeling guilty for being so happy
Happy 2012!
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HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
Shitloads of colorful confetti and streamers fell from the sky as we kissed. It was like a dream! It’s like there was no one else in the room at that moment. It was just me and him, and what I hope is the start of an amazing year. An amazing life.
Last night was amazing! We rang the new year at the Casino’s NYE party, and I had an awesome time. I felt pretty, J was fucking handsome… He’s always handsome but I had never seen him wearing a tie before. Mmhmm!! The lines at the bars were so ridiculous, that our strategy was two doubles each. I was drinking my usual NYE drink: Vodka cranberry. Mmm so festive. Saying that I was tipsy would be a vast understatement. While Angry Candy played, he stood behind me and held me. I was in heaven. Towards the end of the night, my heels were off, and we were dancing to LMFAO songs hehe. It was SO much fun!
After the party the cab phone lines were constantly busy and getting one outside was impossible, so we spent some time at the casino and had a couple more drinks. We finally got a cab at 3am and 40$ later, we were home. Eek. When we got home we continued having fun. I love it when he plays guitar in my living room. Love it! We went to bed at 10am. Eek.
Honestly, this was the most fun NYE EVER! Yeah, I know what you’re thinking. And yeah, last night was more fun than New York City. Best NYE EVER!
I woke up pretty hung-over today. Holy. We slept in, then we ate greasy fast food and watched a good movie, snuggled under a blanket on the couch. Later tonight, still in my PJs we drove to the casino to fetch my car. We got pizza on the way home and ate while watching Storage Wars. It was a perfect new year day!
I am wishing all of you an amazing 2012 filled with love and happiness!
xox
2011 in Review
I stole this from Mindy.
1. What did you do in 2011 that you’d never done before?
*** Got pregnant, had a miscarriage, went through a separation. Saw Metallica in concert, twice… in a row. Decided to live alone, no roommates. (moving in 3 weeks!).
2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
*** Huh. I just went to look at my 2011 resolutions. I crossed off a huge one, I quit smoking! Smoke free since July 27, 2011! I will for sure make more resolutions. I love to-do lists.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
*** Yes, but I’m not naming anyone because I always forget people!
4. Did anyone close to you die?
*** I don’t think so no…
5. What countries did you visit?
*** Zero! After NYE 2011 in New York City, I haven’t gone anywhere out of the country.
6. What would you like to have in 2012 that you lacked in 2011?
*** Money, physical energy, stability.
7. What dates from 2011 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
*** February 8, 2011 – The day I found out I was pregnant
*** Oddly, I completely forget the day I miscarried. I don’t want to know.
*** March 23, 2011 – The day I met Julien
*** July 14, 2011 – Metallica in Halifax
*** July 16, 2011 – Metallica in Quebec
*** September 15, 2011 – Pearl Jam in Ottawa
*** October 31, 2011 – The day S and I announced our separation officially.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
*** I think quitting smoking… 5+ months now!
9. What was your biggest failure?
*** Well, I guess I’m kind of choosing to not see the ending of my marriage as a failure.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
*** Only emotional injuries.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
*** My ex-husband. I think I couldn’t ask for a better relationship with my ex.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
*** The person who wishes me harmful things because they firmly believe that I hurt them on purpose.
14. Where did most of your money go?
*** Trips/concerts
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
*** Metallica, Pearl Jam, New years eve…
16. What song will always remind you of 2011?
*** Coldplay – Paradise. Metallica – Nothing else Matters. Pearl Jam – Better Man. Coldplay – Fix You.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? Happier!
b) thinner or fatter? Same. (I’ll take that!)
c) richer or poorer? Poorer
18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
*** Exercise, healthy things, taking care of myself physically
19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
*** Crying
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
*** Spent it with my parents and brother.
21. Did you fall in love in 2011?
*** Yes
23. What was your favorite TV program?
*** Dexter, The Office…
24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
*** No. I don’t really hate anyone.
25. What was the best book you read?
*** In 2011 I read ZERO complete books. Isn’t that insane?
26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
*** Shades of Sorrow
*** Caroline Savoie
*** Opeth
27. What did you want and get?
*** Love, Happiness, Fun
28. What did you want and not get?
*** A baby
29. What was your favorite film of this year?
*** PJ20
30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
*** My birthday was epic! J and I went to see an awesome outdoors concert and had the best time ever.
31. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
*** Not hurting so much.
32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2011?
*** Meh. I let comfort play a huge role in my wardrobe this year.
33. What kept you sane?
*** Unicorns, Jack Daniels, J, Chanel (who has also been the cause of insanity.)
34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
*** I have no idea…
35. What political issue stirred you the most?
*** I played ostrich this year.
36. Who did you miss?
*** Loki.
37. Who was the best new person you met?
*** Julien
38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2011.
*** Life is too short to just tolerate/endure it and exist. I love living it and experiencing it and making the most of it!
39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
*** “I never opened myself this way. Life is ours, we live it our way. All these words I don’t just say. And nothing else matters.”
My face is on fire!
I was really really hoping to wake up feeling better this morning. Instead I woke up feeling worse. And the rash that was on my chest, back and arms yesterday is now on my face. My face is on fire. It itches. Someone posted on my whiney Facebook status update that fifth disease is going around. Please let it be a fluke! I felt the rash start at my parents place, so maybe I’m allergic to their cat or something.
I so hope I’m feeling 100% by Saturday. You know how much I love New Year’s Eve! This year I won’t be standing in Times Square when the ball drops, but I’ll be recording it on my PVR and watching it when I come back from partying at the Casino! Woo! I’m so excited about it! One of my favourite local bands is playing, and I’m going to wear a pretty dress :)
I haven’t seen my boyfriend in five days and we’ve postponed tonight until tomorrow night. Six days apart. I miss him so much. I hope I’m not such a snotty crusty itchy mess when I see him tomorrow night. Yes I’m being this mushy right now. Yeah, I miss him that much!