December 2011
2011 in Review
I stole this from Mindy.
1. What did you do in 2011 that you’d never done before?
*** Got pregnant, had a miscarriage, went through a separation. Saw Metallica in concert, twice… in a row. Decided to live alone, no roommates. (moving in 3 weeks!).
2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
*** Huh. I just went to look at my 2011 resolutions. I crossed off a huge one, I quit smoking! Smoke free since July 27, 2011! I will for sure make more resolutions. I love to-do lists.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
*** Yes, but I’m not naming anyone because I always forget people!
4. Did anyone close to you die?
*** I don’t think so no…
5. What countries did you visit?
*** Zero! After NYE 2011 in New York City, I haven’t gone anywhere out of the country.
6. What would you like to have in 2012 that you lacked in 2011?
*** Money, physical energy, stability.
7. What dates from 2011 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
*** February 8, 2011 – The day I found out I was pregnant
*** Oddly, I completely forget the day I miscarried. I don’t want to know.
*** March 23, 2011 – The day I met Julien
*** July 14, 2011 – Metallica in Halifax
*** July 16, 2011 – Metallica in Quebec
*** September 15, 2011 – Pearl Jam in Ottawa
*** October 31, 2011 – The day S and I announced our separation officially.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
*** I think quitting smoking… 5+ months now!
9. What was your biggest failure?
*** Well, I guess I’m kind of choosing to not see the ending of my marriage as a failure.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
*** Only emotional injuries.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
*** My ex-husband. I think I couldn’t ask for a better relationship with my ex.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
*** The person who wishes me harmful things because they firmly believe that I hurt them on purpose.
14. Where did most of your money go?
*** Trips/concerts
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
*** Metallica, Pearl Jam, New years eve…
16. What song will always remind you of 2011?
*** Coldplay – Paradise. Metallica – Nothing else Matters. Pearl Jam – Better Man. Coldplay – Fix You.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? Happier!
b) thinner or fatter? Same. (I’ll take that!)
c) richer or poorer? Poorer
18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
*** Exercise, healthy things, taking care of myself physically
19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
*** Crying
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
*** Spent it with my parents and brother.
21. Did you fall in love in 2011?
*** Yes
23. What was your favorite TV program?
*** Dexter, The Office…
24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
*** No. I don’t really hate anyone.
25. What was the best book you read?
*** In 2011 I read ZERO complete books. Isn’t that insane?
26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
*** Shades of Sorrow
*** Caroline Savoie
*** Opeth
27. What did you want and get?
*** Love, Happiness, Fun
28. What did you want and not get?
*** A baby
29. What was your favorite film of this year?
*** PJ20
30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
*** My birthday was epic! J and I went to see an awesome outdoors concert and had the best time ever.
31. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
*** Not hurting so much.
32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2011?
*** Meh. I let comfort play a huge role in my wardrobe this year.
33. What kept you sane?
*** Unicorns, Jack Daniels, J, Chanel (who has also been the cause of insanity.)
34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
*** I have no idea…
35. What political issue stirred you the most?
*** I played ostrich this year.
36. Who did you miss?
*** Loki.
37. Who was the best new person you met?
*** Julien
38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2011.
*** Life is too short to just tolerate/endure it and exist. I love living it and experiencing it and making the most of it!
39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
*** “I never opened myself this way. Life is ours, we live it our way. All these words I don’t just say. And nothing else matters.”
My face is on fire!
I was really really hoping to wake up feeling better this morning. Instead I woke up feeling worse. And the rash that was on my chest, back and arms yesterday is now on my face. My face is on fire. It itches. Someone posted on my whiney Facebook status update that fifth disease is going around. Please let it be a fluke! I felt the rash start at my parents place, so maybe I’m allergic to their cat or something.
I so hope I’m feeling 100% by Saturday. You know how much I love New Year’s Eve! This year I won’t be standing in Times Square when the ball drops, but I’ll be recording it on my PVR and watching it when I come back from partying at the Casino! Woo! I’m so excited about it! One of my favourite local bands is playing, and I’m going to wear a pretty dress :)
I haven’t seen my boyfriend in five days and we’ve postponed tonight until tomorrow night. Six days apart. I miss him so much. I hope I’m not such a snotty crusty itchy mess when I see him tomorrow night. Yes I’m being this mushy right now. Yeah, I miss him that much!
I effing love today.
I slept nearly 12 hours last night. I think I was tired. I’m wearing my blue zebra fleece PJ pants and my pink hoodie. I’m watching tv shows off the PVR and I think I just might do this all day and not feel guilty about it. Yeah that’s my current FB status and my latest tweet. I just love it so much, I have to say it three times. I’m not exactly sure why I’m THIS tired. It could be PMS. It could be that I spent all evening Christmas shopping and battling the crazy crowds. Crowds exhaust me. I’m not anti-crowd, I just need time to myself after. It could also be because my parents and brother visited this week, and that also exhausts me. It’s not them, it’s me. All those years of feeling not good enough for them have led me to impose ridiculous expectations on myself. It’s exhausting. So that’s why I think I might just lounge all day and eat bonbons and not feel guilty about it. Okay maybe not bonbons, but I’m probably going to eat candy cane ice cream later!
I can’t believe that I’m moving in just a little over a month. I’m leaving my house. This house has been my home for 8 years. I’ve worked so hard to be able to buy and maintain this house. I’ve spent a lot of hours in deep reflection, weeding my flower beds. There’s a permanent scar on my right hand, from scraping the skin off of it while trying to install laminate flooring in my bedroom. I’m excited about my new apartment, but it’s definitely going to be a big adjustment. I need a few things that I’m not sure exactly how I’ll afford, like a couch, a microwave, a washer/dryer, but I will find a way. I’m excited to start the rest of my life!
Happy!
I’m sitting on my couch in my PJs, wearing my crocs, with a full face of make up on and sparkly red Christmas nails. I just came back from performing with my choir at our annual Christmas concert, and I’m pleased with the outcome! Accompanied by a 20 piece orchestra and a choir of 50 children, we sang our hearts out!
(Photo of the dress rehearsal yesterday)
Other highlights of the week include:
A successful business trip to St. John’s, Newfoundland. I got to hang out with Tina since I had no meetings on my first day.
I found a great place to live!! “But it’s too soon to commit to something, you’re only moving at the end of January.” “Can’t you choose a cheaper place?” “You’re single and working downtown, why don’t you live downtown?” You know what? None of you are willing to help me move, so kindly STFU! After much much much reflexion (and panicking, crying, and freaking out), I finally settled on the place I fell in like with from the start.
Confirmation that I’ll be spending new year’s eve with the person I most most most want to kiss when the clock strikes twelve! SO Happy about that!
(My progress trying to make this person eat more veggies.)
A conversation about sofas that made me realize commitment related things. SO ecstatic about this!
Three Weeks!
I can’t believe it’s been three weeks since that last blog post. I decided to take the password protection off, since Steph has indeed finally informed his parents of our separation. Where have the last three weeks gone? I’ve been living life, I suppose! J picked me up at the airport at 4:45pm today, then we drove to McDonalds for a large fry, because I was ‘sohungryicouldpuke’, then we drove to my brand new digs so I could hand over a damage deposit and sign a lease. It’s official, I have a place to live, and I’m actually excited about it! It’s not easy mentally/emotionally, downgrading from a house to an apartment, but I’m pretty sure I’ll feel at home there. I hope.
Tomorrow after work I have a hair appointment, then I should probably make an appearance at my work Holiday Party, since I’m on the social committee and all… but that’s hard too. First post-separation holiday party. I’m still having a hard time answering “So how is your husband doing?”. What should I do? I can’t think of a good enough reason(excuse) to skip the party, since I already accepted a Facebook event for what we’re doing later tomorrow night – going to see a live band downtown.
Saturday I have a three hour dress rehearsal; Sunday is my chorale’s Christmas concert! http://riverviewthisweek.canadaeast.com/front/article/1462073
I’m planning to move during the weekend of January 21-22.
Here’s to my new life! :)