I think I'm ready to start losing all that weight that I have gained back, and keep the momentum going after that. Today, I finally cleaned my basement gym and made sure that the stereo, dvd player, and tv are all plugged and all work. I just need to go buy an extension cord tomorrow, because for some reason the one I was using to plug in the two treadmills has disappeared. I have a ridiculous collection of workout dvds, and I kind of forgot that I had such great ones. I think that Steph is finally onboard too. Maybe not the working out regularly yet, but at least the really stopping to indulge in bad habits so often.
I have decided to not put so much pressure on myself this time. I owe nothing to no one (besides the bank and a few credit card companies), and I'm doing this for me. I am a perfectly okay human being, and have always been. I just couldn't see it. So any improvement done and every goal achieved is growth and enrichment. But I need to remember that trying my best at something and failing doesn't diminish who I am as a person and what I deserve in life. I also need to remember that no one is perfect, and if I try to be, I will most likely slip and fall. No one is perfect.
Does anyone else have a fear of impending doom? (besides you, Sophie. We are so alike in so many ways, and yet such opposites in many other ways. I think that we really complement each other so well. Woah, Sappy Saturday.) I have this thing where I feel like my life is literally a series of ups and downs; we always strive for balance, like everyone else, but sometimes life throws us some really big downs, and some really happy highs. We're starting to ride the happy high wave. Stay tuned for a secret blog entry; not because the sources of happiness are really secret, just because there is one MAJOR piece of good news that is unofficial, so I don't want to announce it 'publicly', and/or jinx it.
We definitely compliment each other well, I'm glad to have you as a friend, Nancy :)
GREAT post!
Hmm...now you've got me wondering. LOL.
You know, I totally notice that my emotional upswings and downswings are seasonal. Around now and in September, I'm on a big high. Mid-summer and around January, I'm usually miserable and drained.
Of course, life factors can add dips and swells...
I'm so glad you're on a happy high! Yay!
"But I need to remember that trying my best at something and failing doesn't diminish who I am as a person and what I deserve in life. I also need to remember that no one is perfect, and if I try to be, I will most likely slip and fall"
I wonder why we are all so hard on ourselves, and yet manage to see the good so easily in others. I don't "know" know you, but I have gotten to know you over the years, and I think we can all attest, as your friends (online or in real life), how wonderful you are. Just the fact that you're wanting to become more fit, is a great thing - but don't ever let that and any bumps that come along with it make you forget how fantastic you are overall!
I loved reading such a positive, inspiring post, Nancy!! You're right--you don't owe it to anyone and if you do it for *you* then you will succeed. I know you will :)
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