Sometimes it's easy to forget how far we've come. Last weekend I was looking through my collection of little boxes; the little metal or wooden boxes that we bring back from various places we have visited. I was looking for the second earing in my pair of tiny gold hoops that go in my right ear's cartilage. I take off my earings every night before bed, and I love picking out a pair of earings in the morning to wear with my outfit du jour, but the tiny gold hoop always stays. I only take it off when I go to the hair salon. I've had my little hoop flung from my ear by a comb, more than once. It's not that pleasant. I managed to lose my little hoop at, or after my last hair appointment, that's why I was searching for the second little hoop, to replace it with.
I never found the little gold hoop, but in my Lebanon wooden box (Father in law brought it back from Lebanon for me, since he knows I love little boxes.) were our original wedding bands! I pried(pryed?) the lid open, and looked at them for a full two seconds before my brain registered what they were. Steph changed his wedding band a LONG time ago now, when his became way too big. I only changed mine a year or two ago! How could I forget so fast? Maybe it's because I love love love my new wedding band, because it's smaller, fits better, and complements my engagement ring so much more than my old band.
Since we have both regained a LOT of the weight that we had lost 2 years ago (2 YEARS AGO!?), it's easy to forget that we still have come a long way. I bash myself for having regained 70lbs back, and I tend to forget that I still have 70lbs lost and kept off! I reached in the little box for his ring, and I asked him if he would marry me. He said: "I can't, look, it falls off." Then I tried on my original wedding band.. Slides right off. Wow.
But sometimes, I wonder how far I've really come, when it's 7pm on a Tuesday disguised as a Monday, and I'm sitting here, 10 days away from being 31 years old, with my chosen vice, listening to some really loud Disturbed, because it's been that kind of ass kicking day?
You have definitely come a long way!
OT: why does your blog hate me? I check in every single day and I've even started hitting "refresh" to try and bring up hidden posts. I only saw this post for the first time on Saturday night! Not fair!
You've come so far. And really, at just 31, you have so far left to go. Enjoy the journey!
Here's to vices and Disturbed and an amazing reminder of all the things you've been through to get where you are :)
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